Current Mood: calm
Current Music: U2 + Green Day ~ The saints are coming

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Well, in general days become worse... again, but doesn't matter, enduring some more weeks should be possible... but I'm soo looking forward to just sitting around watching snow falling down, with a cup of tea...

But there's still some time in between, where I will just cuddle myself in the cold arms of uncontendness and horrible stress...

News, for all who always start to scream hysterically and jump around as the result of an epileptic fit... yes I'm gonna change the layout soon, so I don't get this angry letters from people who lost their sight because of all that green...

Oh and Suzuki, or how ever you are called, sweet sarah:
Because I know how much you're into Manga...
That's your OLD MAN!!!!


SARAH + OLD MAN 4-EVER!!! 


Cecy... This one is really cute...



Well and then there's something that will cheer up anyone (even juls...)


(Well normal girl shopping, still it looks like any one of us, but then....)

Muhahahahahaha!!! But this wasn't all of it...

Ain't it cute? Ugly girl is having fun... Awww....

Current Mood: indifferent

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I was just surfing through the net when I found those... That's espacially just for you, Ceci... 



Yes they're nice, but this one is just... You can't call those pitful 15 years a life if you haven't seen this...

Current Location: DAHOAM
Current Mood: weird
Current Music: Placebo ~ The Bitter End *hihi danke*

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I'm so sick...

I want to die...

Please, no comments... Spare oh no, you exaggerate, it's not that bad, you're soo disgusting because you sound like all those emos!!, you don't have a problem, so don't act like you had one... well at the moment it IS a problem to me, and it bothers me ... a lot

Just take it as my christmas wish-list

Current Music: Rammstein ~ Moskau

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Biology is not good for your brain... at the moment it feels like a wet soaked sponge... 
see my problem: ??



I think I need to see a doctor...



Muahahaha!!! ROTE BLUTKÖRPER FOR PRESIDENT....
Oh God... I think I'm gonna make myself comftable in bed...

Current Location: No I don't tell you where I live STRANGER!!!
Current Mood: energetic
Current Music: My ringtones

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School photos... please, from the back, so I don't have to see it. Make it quick, come on just SHOOT ME!!!
A great finish of one of the most depressing days in the last time. Seeing a girl crying, was my only pleasure today.

I'm so pathetic... (No, I'm no emotionless monster, but I just can't stand her...)

Great psychic effort:
If I want to lose weight in a very short time, I do that because I just want to break down, being sure, that I'm gonna be a beautiful corpse...

You don't remember me, but I remember you,
I lie awake and try so hard not to think of you,
but who can decide what they dream?
and dream i do...

I believe in you
i'll give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you, to live, to breathe
you're taking over me.

You saw me mourning my love for you
and touched my hand...
I knew you loved me then.



How cruel would they be if they took away my only reason 
to open my eyes every morning?
Please...

Current Location: short before starting to work
Current Mood: sleepy
Current Music: evanesence - my Immortal

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There's this urge to be perfect and the fall, while I realize that I never will be... But I'm working hard, longing for the happiness that would overload me when I reached my goal, but I break down in the middle of the street... I'm surrounded by those happy people, far away from perfect too, asking myself why they deserve it? 



However, they rake it... the feeling inside... the perfect ones, I have to face everyday, and my self-confidence is pressed down on the floor by their bloodstained heels. I force myself to stop, just be pleased with it, I already laid in the gutter, and I fear I could back there again... but it's this voice that is telling me that I always want more, that there's a bit of energy left, I could do even better with... It makes me nasty, changes my face, and sometimes I wish that it gets everyone else... however, then I immediatly regret everything I said and... I'm just... too confused... I think I should go to bed now...

I just want perfection... is that too much I'm asking for?

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